OH NO MAKING COOL STUFF MEANS LEARNING

alright, now that i have a website, i'm being confronted with the fact that i gotta start making my own cool stuff if i really wanna have something to throw at people. scary prospect.

the immediately easy idea is to throw up those "art" and "music" pages so i can share whatever old crap i can find up there, but i dunno if i really want to share too much? like, maybe the right idea is to treat this as a new beginning, y'know? start just making stuff for the website insteada finding stuff i can put on the site. unfortunately, my tablet's display got kinda busted this week, and the muses aren't super speaking to me at the moment. wonder if it was something i said?

honestly, though, if i made a page for them right now, they wouldn't come out much better than a long HTML sheet of loose files. i'm the kind of perfectionist that wants a gorgeous content delivery system before i start delivering on that content. formatting, formatting, formatting! so i gotta learn me a piece of CSS first. make this site pop slightly more than a mortuary's contacts page. throw some neon pink up all over the place, make the site real hard to use, just the way i like it. but, uhhh... that means learning CSS... and that sounds pretty boring. formatting, formatting, formatting...

so i'm procrastinating on everything else by working on a different thing. JavaScript™! "It's not Java, even a little bit!" wanna learn me some of that sweet sweet gamercode. make some... gamergames. so i started working through the MDN "pure Javascript 2D breakout game" tutorial, and i was having me a ball learning me how to make a ball for me to have. and stuff. and then i realized that, once you get past the part where you put the canvas on the page, and remind it to render every so and then, a lot of this junk is junk i did in, like, the childhood times. in week long coding camps and stuff.

dang, the 90s kids were right, watching a lot of Homestar Runner will irrevocably ruin your general manner of speaking. what was my point again?
right, okay, JavaScriptery. at this point i think the only obstacle in my way is me. i've done a million code tutorials at every point in my life. but i've never actually started a project of my own and taken it all the way to completion. like, i should just start, right? i have all the documentation i could need to realize my ideas, and i got a few ideas (that i'm trying not to talk about prematurely). worst i can say is that it's just kinda scary.

so what does this mean for our hero, hypothetical Luma fans? is today the day? will we see him get, pray tell, The Results?

uhh. probably not. it's, like, 6:40PM already and dark as hell. given how long i've spent today staring noncommitally at documentation i feel confident in saying i've led the horse (me) to water (work) and i (me) can't make it (i) drink (enact wizardry). witchcraft and spellery will have to wait until the sun shines its UVtacular rays upon the snowed-over world once "again" happens. or i experience an inexplicable motivation burst at one in the morning, now that i'm committing to not trying any more work today and getting some rest and leisure in there. probably not, though, my defiant nature doesn't usually make itself useful like that.

speaking of rest and leisure, it's high time i popped a cartridge or two. an SNES cartridge. i'm playing some of those games i got, is what i mean. i don't actually know what happens in FFIISNES and i feel ready to find out. laters.